How Long I Have Been On My Journey







Friday, June 29, 2012

The Miller's Analogies Test and My Mississippi Interview

It has been a while since I have been on. I have had a lot on my mind: grad school, current job, finding a new job, my relationship and the MAT. I have been worried that I would not meet the deadline for the things that I have to turn in for grad school: two recommendation letters, a resume, an awesome narrative, grades transferring, etc. Well, thankfully my grades have been confirmed as of this Monday as being at the school. That's one weight lifted. I have been worrying myself about these recommendation letters. I have finally received one Wednesday and I will get my other next Monday. The other things have yet to be completed. I am working on everything else this weekend. MY DEADLINE IS TO TURN EVERYTHING IN MY NEXT MONDAY, JULY 2nd!!! The official deadline is July 15th. So, it is getting down to the wire. I took the Miller's Analogies Test today. I registered too late for the GRE. However, I do have this option of the MAT...AND IT IS 50% CHEAPER!!! So, I took it. It was hella hard, lol. However, I did score 14 points from average. I was disappointed but I feel better about it. Right now, I am worried about getting accepted. I had my job interview this pass Tuesday. It was nothing that I expected. First, lol, let me say that I applied for this job May 29th. I got the call June 20th. Whoa!!! Lol. I forgot I applied for this job. But the job was for a case manager position. On June 26th, I drove to Gautier, Mississippi for this interview. Personally, I was intimidated by the responbilities of this job. I felt like I would be over my head with what I had to do: which is keeping good records of mentally ill clients and their medications and current mental faculties. Ehh... I have YET to hear back from the hospital on that Lab Assitant job. Also, they took the listing down. I would love to know if they want me or not so that I could keep it moving. I want to find a job in my field. HOWEVER, by August, if I have not found a job, I will almost take any job, lol. BABY NEEDS SOME MONEY. Well, until next time.

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Job Interview for Potential Job #2 is Scheduled!!!

Yesterday, I received a call about an interview in Mississippi. The place is about an hour and 25 minutes from my house. The job is a case worker dealing with the mentally ill. I saw the job listing in the classifieds in the news paper. I applied for this job in MAY, lol. But they did call me and asked for an interview. I have yet to hear from the lab assistant job I applied for. I will not know what to do if I am offered both jobs. I am going to this interview in Mississippi. Which job will I take? The lab assistant job was something that I was very interested in. However, the hours is nothing that I would really want to work. But I do get benefits, but the job will only pay 21,000 dollars a year before taxes. Another pro is that the job is about 35 minutes from my house. At the moment, I do not know what the case worker job in Mississippi pays, but I researched the pay on the internet, and it stated betweem 36-46,000 a year before taxes. It will be an hour and 25 minutes away from my home. Is it worth the drive and the gas? Even though my bachelors is in psychology, I am not interested in pursuing a life long career in this field. I was hoping that this would be something I could do on the side. However, I could do this now to get on my feet, get my feet wet and to put this experience on my resume. My dream career is the medical field. But I am getting my masters in Mental Health Counseling. Decisions, decisions. I would really appreciate some feedback and some advice. Please leave a comment. What would you do in my position???

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Countdown!!!

So I added this countdown to my profile. What does this mean? I have officially set a date for when I open my online store. As of right now, September 30th will be the official date. I am so excited. I cannot wait until I seem my hobby turn a business. This will be my absolute baby. I am not looking to get rich off of it. However, I am hoping to at least get alot of people to come to my store and at least browse and give me some feedback onmy product. I have over three months to get everything perfect. I am still working on what I will have available. I am considering making a fashion blog to go along with it. I already have a few people interested in buying a few things in bulk from me. It is more motivation for me to continue my dream... So be with me when I open my store.

Sunday, June 17, 2012

High School: Who is doing something with their lives?

So, I graduated from a small little town in Alabama, #3 in my class. I thought it meant something, to be in the top 5% of a graduating class. However, when I went to college, NONE of this mattered. I started off at a community college. I did my two years and graduated Summa Cum Laude there. When I graduated community college in 2008, I was the first person in my class to graduate with a college degree. I felt like I was doing something. The val of my class graduated the same day from another community college. Then we both went to universities. She graduated 2010 with her degree. I graduated this year (2012). I am the second person in my class to have a bachelors. There may be two other people in my graduating class that is in college. When I went to my four year institute, there were alot of people that said that a majority of their class did not and will not go to college. But why is that? I understand that college is not for everyone, It almost wasnt for me. But I had to do what I had to do because my mindset was I wanted better for myself so I have to get this degree. I did have a lot of people tell me that I was only smart in my community and that I only got my two degrees from community college because it was probably easy. But they would say that I would not make it at "real" school. I have yet to realize what is a real school and a non-real school. However, I have three degrees in my room and these same people are in our hometown still doing nothing. I am a winner. So, everyone has had that story where you go off to school and come home and people are saying that you have changed and you think you are something because you are in college. That use to really hurt my feelings and made me want to cry sometimes. I have cried a few times. I have pride myself on the fact that I never change. For these people to tell me I have changed really made me feel fake. But it took alot of soul searching and life experiences to make me realize that these same people who said that I have changed really cannot keep up with me intellectually and are intimidated by me. I do not mean to sound like I am the absolute best thing since the wheel, but what I am saying is why they have to/had to knock me for me trying to do something with myself. Now, I just take it as a compliment. "Yes, I have changed. I want more for myself. I want to have a degree. I do not want to struggle in life. I am not in high school no more. High school will not be the highlight of my life. It is time for me to put my big girl panties on." I have and I have never looked back. So I have lost some friends. It gets really lonely. My phone do not ring like it used to. I do not get company over the house like I used to. I do not have people to text like I used to. But I am still getting my lessons and I am still trying to stack these degrees. I wish I could encourage many more of classmates to go to school and make something of themselvees, but they have to want it for themselves. I had to say to myself, "I do not want to be here struggling. I want to make money, enjoy my career and live good. I do not want to stay living in the past. I do not want to think what if I did things differently. It is time for me to put my big girl panties on." I have and I have never looked back :-)

Getting My Name Out There (But I Have No Name)

As you read in the title, I do not have an official name for my line of what I do, which is accessories. I do not believe I have blogged specifically about that yet. For your viewing pleasures, I present to you my line, that still has not official name. I have been working on a name for about four months. Right now, I have it under my Twitter name, but that will changed ASAP. I make earrings, bracelets, necklaces, rings, keychains, bowties, headbands, hair accessories, and I am considering baby onesies now. I have known how to sew since middle school. I have been experimenting in jewelry making for almost a year now. I have made a few nice things, but I like I am at the point where I want to put me a website up and sell. I have been looking into buying a domain name. The lowest price I see is 7 dollars a year, which is not too bad. I also wanted to find a place or person who could make me a website. Well, I stumbled upon bigcartel.com This is a website where artists can sell their creations. I am interested in this. They have monthly fees from free (with extreme website limitations) 9.99, 19.99 to 29.99 with the best settings offered. Its gives you the options to place between 3 to 5 photos of each item. I am excited. However, I have not worked on anything just yet to start making this website. I guess that I am not motivated enough. Well, one of my sorority sisters got in touch with me last night and told me that she was opening a consignment shop. She really like the jewerly I make and want to buy some different things to put in her place. I am too excited. I have told her to get with me so I can get her some things together. So with these two opportunities put my name out there. This has been one of my small goals, is to at least try to see if I can get my name out as an accessory designer. We will see how it goes. I believe that I am going to set me a date for when I am going to open this store though. So be on the look out. Until next post!

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Interview Today!!!

Like I mentioned in my last blog, I got a call about a job interview. It was today at ten o clock. I was so nervous. The night before, my boyfriend called me and he was so excited. He was trying to do a mock interview over the phone. He had me stump on possible interview questions. I did not sleep well. However, I got up this morning with semi-confidence and made the 30-40 minute trip there. I arrived at my interview kind of early, due to the fact that I was sure that I would get lost, and I did. So I was twenty minutes early. However, she started the interview immediately. I was only asked one question: Do you want to tell me about yourself? I told the truth, that ever since I was in high school I have always wanted to be in the medical field. She took me on a tour of the lab and she explained the job duties and responsibilites. Then, I met with her boss. I learn that her boss was the one who wanted my application reviewed and to summon me for an interview. So, I was excited to see and meet her because it gave me more confidence about the job. She concluding the interview saying that resume made me stand out. All and all, this was my very first interview since graduating college. I am excited about it, but it also made me realize that I am quite unprepared for these type of meetings. Next time, I will know how to sell myself better. I do not believe that I was assertive enough. If I do not get this job, I will be ready for the next interview.

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Guess Who Called Me Today!!!!

I cannot absolutely believe what happened to me. First, let me back up to Sunday. I woke up to see that I had an email on my phone. It was 6 a.m., so I was wondering what it could have been that early on a Sunday. But it was job engine alerting me that a LAB ASSISTANT job opening was recently placed on the internet. I got out of bed finally about ten o'clock and applied for the job. The job asked for lab experience from a job OR from extensive lab experience due to pursuing a science degree. I also have experience from an internship. So, i readily applied to this job. I do not know why I was so excited and confident about this job, but I was. I was even looking for possible shoes to wear. Monday, I did not get a call. However, today, I received a call about the position with a job interview TOMORROW!!! 10 o clock in the morning, I will be staring into the face of a woman who could possibly open the door to me getting my feet wet in the medical field. EXCITEMENT!!! It could not have been possible without my higher power. I am so grateful. So, wish me luck with this interview tomorrow. I will spend the rest of the night trying to think about the game plan as far as selling myself as the best potential lab assistant they will ever lay eyes on. ;-)

Sunday, June 10, 2012

What is all going on with ME?!!!

So, this blog is going to be about everything about me that has to do with me furthering my career and getting my name out there as a some-what inspiring designer. Hmm...ok. Well, let me break down my life a little more so that it is more understanding. I have three college degrees (two ASs and one BS). Right now, I do not feel like I can do anything these degrees, so I am going back to school to get into the medical field. I am open to the fact that I may have to start from a "bottom" and work my way up. That is absolutely fine with me. I would welcome it actually. Let me claw my way to where I want to be. So, I have this ehh kind of relationship with my mother where I really cannot be an adult in this house-hold because of something. I do not know what it is, but I feel like I cannot be who I am entirely because I have to live by her "standards" while living here at her house. UGH! One thing I will miss about undergrad school is the freedom I had with my apartment and being three hours away from her. So, I am trying to hurry up and start making some money so I can break free from her rules. Who knows when this will be though. I have this hobby where I design earrings, bracelets, necklaces, etc. I want to try my hand at selling some of my things. I am afraid of rejection though. That is why I haven't just broke out and done any real advertising for myself. Also, my mom is not real supportive of it. But I am ready to hit the ground running and do what I got to do to at least try. I may or may not be this household name, but I have a dream and I want to at least try. I do not want to think years down the line that I should have at least tried. I am willing to accept whatever happens: success or failure. I have also been thinking about another possible masters that I may take up in the future. More about that in another blog. So, I will cut this short. But please take a peek at this one picture of one my creations. Until next time, and maybe I will have a title to go with my name.

Saturday, June 9, 2012

Seriously Beginning My Journey

My story begins with me graduating from my university May 11th 2012. I graduated with a Psychology degree with a biology minor. When I was in college, I was initially a biology major; however, I was speechless at the fact on how hard school really was. I decided to switch my major and minor, thinking that I would not need all of that science for what I wanted to do...medicine. Boy, I was wrong. I am missing crucial classes that would help me get into some program or some medical school. I was crushed. However, I was not too disappointed. I began my psychology degree and absolutely loved the material I was learning. I grew passionate about abnormal psychology and substance abuse. I have never made a C in my psychology courses. I cannot say that about my biology courses. I have like eight Fs, a few Ds, and not too many Cs. I did make a few As and Bs in those courses, maybe five. I sit here to this day, worried about whether I can get into someone's school with these grades I have. However, that is not going to stop me from going back and doing better in the classes that I did bad in and taking them over. Today, almost a month since I graduated from college, I have decided to go back and try to do better in some classes so that I can achieve one of my greatest dreams. I am applying to graduate school in Mobile, Alabama. I believe that I am going to seek a masters in Mental Health Counseling. I believe that I can really make a difference in this field along with the medical field. If I could, I would love to combine this field and the medical field together and make this super career for myself. I am waiting for my transcripts to be sent to this school. I am also waiting on two people to complete my recommendation letters for school. I am also procrastinating on this narrative I have to write. Also, I have to take the graduate school entrance exam....ALL OF THIS BEFORE JULY 15th!!! So, you can guess that I am a tad bit stressed, but I am willing to keep it together so I can get this done by the date. As far as what kind of physician I want to be, I really do not know yet. I love the ER scene that I watch on the reality trauma shows. I am also interested in physical therapy and dermatology. I am also interested in dental. I am also interested in labs in hospitals. I have thought about working in hospital labs as a life career for me. Do I have any idea how to begin any of these or how to eliminate any of these? Of course not, hahaha. However, I have not given up hope yet. So, follow me on this journey to bettering myself and furthering my career and cementing my place in the medical field. Oh, what a ride this will be!!!